I sit and wear a cheerful smile

I sit and wear a cheerful smile
I speak in a kind and pleasant tone
But my heart it spills its blood, meanwhile
From the brutal seeds that I have sewn

Gracious heart forgive me please
I meant not to compromise your well being
Time will heal, bring peace and ease
But right now sad pain is all you're seeing

My thoughts produce nothing but remorse
As I have no one else but myself to blame
I have to live with the fact that I'm the cause
But heaven knows this destruction was never my aim!

My intentions were honest and clean
No ill-doing or malice was ever meant
With a love so great that can't be measured or seen
I've erred, I've wronged and only wish to repent

No person can ever be perfect and unsoiled
Therefore love may sting the hearts it may touch
But the futile offence can never spoil
A great love shared and treasured so much!

I can never promise a smooth path on which to tread
With me, in our love, as together we grow
What I can say more sincerely than what I've ever said
That ill always love you tonnes more than I can ever show

written on 21/02/13