The love I never had

Oh love you once found me
But I was blind, naive and immature for shutting you out.
You caught me in a wrong time, so I never knew it was you have came for me
The love I never had, I lost you due to confusion ‎trying to figure out if it was true love or lust
The love I never had, loosing you feels like a dream a "nightmare" that I cannot wake up from
I am fast asleep, I need somebody to wake me up, but no one is there to wake me up, I am on my own
The love I never had, I fantasise everyday about how our future would have been like together 
The love I never had, only if I could turn back the clock, I would make things differently 

Right when I was about to reach out to you, It was already too late
Too late to know you better, understand and open my heart to you
Oh the love how could I not seen that it was really you but not lust
How can I forget you?
Why am I supposed to grieve you while alive?
How am I supposed to move on?
How am I supposed to act like I never had something special with you?
How am I supposed to love another while my heart only wants you?
How am I supposed to live without you
While you gave me so much to hold on to.

The love I never had, you will forever be my shinning star
You will forever be my light in the dark
Thinking of you just brighten up my future like the mood brighten up night
Now that you gone 
I will hold on to our memories
And be strong as a lion 

Yours in poetry
Cynthia Gomotsegang Phoko