Empty

He said "I am sorry I can’t do this anymore, I am in love with someone else"

I waited for the angry monster to come, but nothing.
I waited for tears to come crashing down my eyes, but nothing.
I waited for sadness to rush through and cloud my mind, but nothing.
One minute of pause I was trying to figure out what I felt but nothing came. I felt nothing.
Was I in shock maybe. I don’t know.

"Did you hear what I just said, Are you okay" He asked....

It was like someone pressed played to continue this movie scene I was in.
It all came down on me. I fell in love with this man. He was a good man, he just needs a strong woman to journey through life with him, and I was that woman, I convinced myself. With every fight we had and pain caused by each other, I slowly drifted away. The promise I made to him kept me going and I wanted to make things work with him but not realising I left the love behind. Things were not the same anymore. Conversations were forced, long replies. Unanswered calls and meeting were cancelled. The chemistry and passion was gone and we spoke with each other with no respect at all. It was clear but I didn’t want to say it first. I have fallen out of love with him...We have fallen out of love with each other...

"Yes I am okay love" I said...

I stood there trying to find the right words to say to this man and finally the emotions came, I was relieved, I felt a huge weight go off my shoulder. The weight that carried confusion, Hurt and quilt. I was free for the first time in months, I was happy and ironically with few words

"I am in love with someone else"

He gave me my freedom and smile back because I was in love with someone else too. I was in love with John...

I wished him well and we bid goodbye, what we had was good at some point but it was over and we needed to move on with the people that captured our hearts...